Sleepless

I had a sleepless night and now into the next morning, I wonder where the weekend began and ended. The condition of being so tired, you are restless and wired at the same time. I struggled so much for sleep last evening, that side effects included a broken vase on my nightstand, it took me a bit to unravel myself from the sheet, and several pillows ended up in places I hadn't realized a pillow could go. When is it when the body and the mind finally level and realize they both need rest?
Every tick, every drip, every crunch within the house and out become deafening. Left side, Right side, Stomach, Back, every position just as uncomfortable as the next. Oh, and why is it, when you are struggling so much for sleep, you start remembering everything you couldn't remember during the course of the day. A name of a person you saw, finally pops into your head, the title of the song finally rings true, and yeah, I was suppose to go to the post office today. But as you are tossing and turning, you don't want to get up and write down this stuff, for fear you will really wake up from the already weary state.
Somewhere in all that, I get to sleep, only to ask myself, did I really sleep, considering I remember watching a rerun of a infomercial, and still remember the song title. I know, if I really slept, I wouldn't have remembered such a thing.
One advantage to this past sleepless night, and what appears to be another (It's almost 1 a.m now) I sat on my deck for the first real time this summer. Curled up with a blanket, I watched every second of the sun rise. It was priceless to say the least. Watching the sun rise, was worth watching the alarm clock all night. The simple progression, the awakening of this saturday was somewhat like those flip books you had as a child. The one's you flick with your thumb and watch the events unravel from beginning to end in just a matter of seconds. Only with the sun rise, it was a matter of minutes that seemed like seconds, and you weren't able to flip and start over.... at least not until the next 24 hrs.
So, folks, I am off to try this again, sleep that is. I guess its a nice consolation knowing I can watch the sun rise if I can't sleep. Try it, I dare you.... Give yourself the gift to watch the sun rise wholly. Not while you are getting ready for work, or sitting at the kitchen table checking your email or reading the newspaper, or even driving to work, sit down, and watch every movement in the sky. Believe me, it's well worth your time.
Blessings!