So it's been awhile... Ah my dearest blog, sits empty. Eagerly anticipating something, anything at this point. It's been almost two months since I wrote. So much longer in all other aspects of my life. Unless you consider and count the arbitrary things, such as bills, a card, a note to staff, a missed phone message to my boss. Frankly.. it's been a while. My dear friend Chad, has probably been waving the white flag of surrender to any hope that I will ever send him anything. I am sorry. A valiant effort, I hope to succeed soon. Just don't give up on me.
I know it doesn't matter to anyone if I have anything posted, but this used to be something that came second nature to me. Now I force myself, to think of anything noteworthy.
Since the new year, I feel I've been in a race, I'm still running, but being constantly lapped. I stay focused, but for all the wrong reasons, and the focus..well it's blurry at times. I seem to eat, breathe and sleep work anymore. Granted, I am blessed I have good jobs, and it does pay the bills, but sanity is just a state anymore.
My job is great, but is it so great, it interferes with all facets of my life? My passions are but a daydream, and my energy is zapped.
I was told just the other day, "Any day you wake up, is a good day!" I do believe that, but what happens when you just want to stay in bed?

HA----To prove my point, this was wrote around the first of the year, and I am going to attempt to finish it.

By rereading it is evident things have not changed, I am still busy, and I am still dreaming of my new comfy pillow, silky sheets, and slumber. I am almost certain I think of sleep at least ten times a day. Yet, when I am ready for bed, it is not at all what I had imagined. I seem to toss and turn aimlessly, and dream like a crazy person.

Ah good intentions, but wasted endeavors. I want to write, I try to write, but come up empty handed. I used to be good at it, or should I say good at least putting words to paper/screen.

Yeah, pretty certain I am still in that above mentioned race, but at this point I am walking. I will finish, but it won't be pretty.

I will be better blogger, I guarantee it! (I am not promising this time though!)