a good book

Lately, I have found myself, picking bad reading. Well rather, my mother has. She is kind enough to give me her books after she has read, and then I too, can pass them on. It's been months of idle shop talk. Mom and I used to talk of the books, curious what the next chapter in the life of so and so would be like, but as of late.. nothing. I have a total of 15 books, I have just thrown in the Goodwill box, because I can't get into them. I have given them chapters, waiting for something to spark my soul. Today.........after one paragraph of a new book, I am hooked. Ahh glorious grand feeling. It's like hitting the lottery. I am almost afraid to peek in farther, for fear the book will let me down, or I will read so fast, I will be pedaling faster and harder for a new book. It makes me wonder if my degree of curiousity, adventure, or zest has changed, that all of a sudden, I am bored. I hope not. I just hope it was the lofty choices of the "book club" my mother belongs too.
Ahhh joyous occasion I have a fulfilling story to unfold in front of me.

maybe i meant broken
pushed to hard
lost along the way
no one seemed to know
or care for that matter.
look into these eyes
no soul. no spirit.
dont' you realize you've become me,
something you want,
can't get away from.
dark shadows, orbits of
hallowed wells.
that makes us stand up and realize
life doesn't fear you,
but you fear the fact of life grasping
all you live for.

trying to get back on the blogging track...

it's been a long while, too long, yet, as i decided i wanted to write something, i really don't know what i want to say.
my mind a funnel, an ever whirling wind of ...well just that, full of wind.

i heard a line from a song, "all i want is today".........yeah, that is precisely what i want.....but really what is that?

each day seems to be a new struggle to get going. I am no longer that engine that could, I am that jalopy, that spits, sputters, and rattles getting ready in the morning.

i need caffeine, and alot of it each day.
i take less and less time in the morning to get ready, as sleep now seems more of a priority. yet...i've gotten more sleep in the last year, than i have in many years past.

i say a small silent prayer every morning before I turn my computer on at work, that no one will yell at me, and TODAY will be a good day.

i wish i didn't rely on 'wishing' so much.